I repeated myself 108 times before falling silent. In that silence I could actually feel the vibration of my words as a palpable structure around me. This was a breathtaking moment for me. I was sitting in class at the time, on the cold, hard floor in the ashram in Northern India. Earlier we had been learning Yogic Philosophy and Mantra, and I had been leaning in to every grace filled word that Mataji was teaching. But now, we had just recited a mantra through the 108 beads of the mala before moving into meditation. I learned right then and right there, the power of speaking, what we choose to say, and how we say it….it becomes real, because it’s sound, it’s frequency, and it settles into something.
Years ago I read the timeless book “The Four Agreements” by Don Miguel Ruiz, who speaks about “Being Impeccable with your Word” (which stands as the first agreement in the book); today, this is further demonstrated beautifully (in my mind) by Nigel Stanford in his video Cymatics. (Please watch his music video here: nigelstanford.com/Cymatics/
Toward the end of the video we see the musicians put on a protective layer as the vibrations become increasingly intense…isn’t this what we wish we could do when interactions with another become more intense?...we want to, or need to shield ourselves if there is an element of threat perceived in those words…an imaginary cloak but nonetheless, that innate reaching for it within a tangle of words is reflective of their reverberating impact. There is a very real impact of sound vibration because of its creative force. So to be “impeccable” with our word offers us the choice, we don’t really have an excuse to blurt out whatever toxic thing slithers off the tongue, not really…we can always choose integrity, even within moments of anger or trial. We can still do the best we can to make that choice. At this point in time are we willing to stop shooting bullets from our mouths…to roll the reel in a bit and make it a personal challenge before we begin addressing the bigger picture?
It’s time…now…to speak with integrity…to begin the healing there…individually…moving that into a collective. Speaking with integrity comes from the heart and most people aren’t willing to speak from the heart… it’s vulnerable there. In truth though, the backbone to this vulnerability is the power of our Being. If we’re going to repeat ourselves over and over and over again (as is the human tendency) then let’s challenge ourselves to say those words from as much love, integrity, grace and movement toward peace, as we can muster in the moment. Are you up for that challenge? Are you up for the challenge of doing your best in every given moment, because some moments are uglier than others, some moments our best isn’t as pretty as other moments, and it can be exhausting…but doesn’t matter…are you willing?--with love, Letters In Yoga